I have never been so happy for a calander month to end. May. May I never feel as low, manic, or chaotic as I felt this may. The month began with a vortex or stress, fear and anxiety. We start with the end of april. The “violently bisexual” mini movie kicked off the torrent. From miscomunication to holes left in hamearts walls and doors. It made for a very compeling story but for my personal life not so great to say the least. As i felt my foundation crumble and my world come crashing down, i was able to grab a foot yold and climb out of the rubble. For a day. The force was not with me on may the 4th as i saw my profesinal life twist and decay into a deep dark tunnel. After weeks of unanswered questions and upheavel the light at the end of the tunnel seems to be less of a frright train and abit more like a bike messenger. Still painful if we were to colide but far safer then a freight train. And then to round of this hellish 32 days. Yes i said 32, the governemnt came with its hand out. It has been quite the month. 😮💨
Mixed in with constant feelings and fears of inadiquacy, constant combatance of the child, and over all frustration with the field of education, i can not wait till june. Especially the 23.

